I am a full time, stay at home mummy. As of about 2 months ago, I am also a blogger. And herein is the dilemma! I am beginning to wonder if these two statements are actually compatible.
Why I Became a Blogger
- To be creative
- To have grown-up conversations
- To meet other people
- To get advice about parenting
- To be chatty – blogging is bit like chatting to your best mate
- To do something that is for ME (as opposed to ‘Jenny’s mum’)
- To build up my self esteem
- To vent
- To keep my brain active and stimulated
- To be part of a community
- To contribute something to the world
- To have a voice
- To expand my horizons
- To help parents who are struggling with the same issues as me
- To share the joy of parenting
- To spread happiness and positivity
- To try something new
- To have an opinion
- To be me
- To meet with like-minded people
- To meet with people who challenge my opinions
- To grow as a person
The Sticking Point
I think I am well on the away to achieving a lot those goals and, for the most part, I have really enjoyed my new ‘blogger’ title.
BUT IT IS TIME CONSUMING.
I am ashamed to confess that I am playing with my children and simultaneously wondering how I could interpret this moment in a blog post. I regret that I have paused storytime because I’ve just had inspiration for a tweet. I hate that I am not the fully devoted, 100% there mummy that I was in post number 1.
Is It Possible?
I know I’m an over-thinker, but I am really grappling with this issue. Can anyone ever truly claim to be a full time mum who blogs? Surely, by definition, once you start dividing your time, you no longer fit the criteria?
But on the other hand, I am enjoying this new adventure. A happy mummy who feels like she’s contributing to the world must be a good mummy to have around? I am demonstrating a life lesson which is important for us all to learn – do the best you can with whatever you have to hand. I am modelling ambition and a willingness to adapt and grow. These are great things for my children to see.
So for now, I will press on, in the hope that the more familiar I become with this new world, the less intrusive it will be on family life. Perhaps I will get quicker as I get more to grips with the technology. Perhaps I will get better at setting the boundaries between everyday life and blogger life. Perhaps I will fall into more of a routine as I find out what the work really entails.
All I really know is this; if it doesn’t ease off soon, the blogging will have to go – I choose family!
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